God has a purpose and plan for your life. The key here is recognize who's purpose and plan it is. I can think back now to the years of searching for my purpose or a place of belonging where everything was going to work out just like I wanted it too. This is really summed up in these three words "fulfillment in life". If I just made enough money or had a bigger house or nicer car that would surely fulfill me. If I could just get that promotion or higher paying job, that would make me feel better.
I am tireless worker and usually very determined when motivated properly. I succeeded in many different arenas of great disparages. In the end none were fulfilling. They were momentary glimpses of accomplishment. Exactly as God's word says " mans glory is like the flowers, they fade away. In other words here today gone tomorrow. Mind you all I did in these many years I did without knowing God or really anything about him, but he was there opening doors I could never open and giving me abilities and knowledge I never had and he allowed me to prosper in that time to show me and teach me this very lesson. None of it has any meaning or lasting value. Life was merely a chasing after the wind. I finally ran myself out. I hit the wall and nothing mattered. Then the bottom fell out and I crashed to the ground, with nothing left I sought an exit for my life. You see when death is welcome there is nothing, you are void. This is where life can begin. It rises from the ashes and the ruins. I am reminded that an old friend of mine got exactly to this place where death was welcome and unfortunately he didn't know who to call on and he choose to end his life. Now I don't know all the circumstances but I tell you this so you understand that there are no do overs.... no second chances.
I was there. Nothing mattered, I didn't matter. Fortunately for me God was chasing me and I was seeking him but he was chasing me much harder and for a much longer time period than I. One night as I wallow in my puddle on the floor calling out to him he answered. He showed up. I had to lose every little bit of selfish desire. I had to be ready to give up my life not in death but the life I live for myself. I needed to die to my self serving nature and begin to serve him and his will for my life. Jesus came in to the room that night and gave me a new life that he now lives through me. It is not I who live but Christ in me, the hope of glory. Not only did he give me a new start, he promised me I will be with him for eternity. The peace and love that was lavished upon me that night is not describable with words but for a man who welcomed death I was changed to a man who knew he never had to fear anything again. I had perfect peace. I want you to understand my outward circumstances did not change yet. So all my troubles and heartache that pushed me to the brink were all still very present. So how did I have such assurance and peace about myself and my life. One word answer is Jesus!
I know that someone out there who may be reading this is maybe pulling up to that same cliff or thinking about stepping to the ledge. I want to tell you this as clearly as I can. There is hope. There is life like you never knew it could be. There is peace that passes all understanding. There is one who loves you more than anyone else ever did or will and he died for you. His name is Jesus. Call on him. Romans 10:13 says "for everyone who calls on the name of the lord will be saved. v10 For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved. If you have questions, please email them. I would love to help you in anyway I can. God Bless!